GRACE - Laura Story

I burst into tears when I hear this song .... sooooooo me! : ). yet I am forever thankful for the GRACE that stands still no matter how much BLACK DOTS i have in this heart. Once again, He brings me to the CROSS : ).


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=51LGsPMKeAE&feature=related


GRACE
My heart is so proud. My mind is so unfocused.
I see the things You do through me as great things I have done.
And now You gently break me, then lovingly You take me and hold me as my father and mold me as my maker.


I ask you: "How many times will you pick me up, when I keep on letting you down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory, how far will forgiveness abound?"
And you answer: " My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face, You'll walk in the pow'r of My daily sufficient grace."

At times I may grow weak and feel a bit discouraged, knowing that someone, somewhere could do a better job.
For who am I to serve You?I know I don't deserve You.
And that's the part that burns in my heart and keeps me hanging on.


I ask you: "How many times will you pick me up, when I keep on letting you down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory, how far will forgiveness abounds?"
And you answer: " My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face, You'll walk in the pow'r of My daily sufficient grace."
You are so patient with me, Lord.

As I walk with You, I'm learning what Your grace really means.
The price that I could never pay was paid at Calvary.
So, instead of trying to repay You, I'm learning to simply obey You
by giving up my life to you For all that You've given to me.

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I ask you: "How many times will you pick me up, when I keep on letting you down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory, how far will forgiveness abounds?"
And you answer: " My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face, You'll walk in the pow'r of My daily sufficient grace."

Hasil merenung...

Hem, tak banyak yang tahu.....
Betapa diri ini bergumul dengan banyak pertanyaan tentang hari esok , hari ini.

Kepala penuh : ), dan saya memutuskan untuk duduk di depan si Pingky yang setia nemenin saya di masa2 stuck n cuma bisa nulis. Hal -hal yang lagi saya renungkan hari- hari ini :

1. Betapa kecilnya manusia, rapuhnya manusia.
Berawal dari merawat ibu saya yang jatuh, berakibat 2 ruas tulang rusuk belakang kiri patah, saya semakin "ditarik" untuk
menyadari , betapa "ringkih"nya manusia itu. 2 tulang rusuk ini bergeser 2 mm ke bawah, dan Anda takkan pernah memba-
yangkan rasa sakitnya sampai Anda melihat orang yang pernah patah tulang rusuk. Untuk bernapas di hari pertama itu, dia
menangis, dan terisak. Untuk batuk, ibu saya harus menahan dengan segenap kekuatan, sampai sesak nafas. Untuk bersin
dibutuhkan 1 bulan, sampai dia benar2 bisa bersin dengan "tulus dan alami" tanpa menekan hidungnya atau menahan sakit.

Kaka ipar saya, digigit seeekor nyamuk Aedes Aygepti, 5 hari badannya panas turun naik, jumlah trombosit turun hingga 1/10 jumlah normal. hanya dalam hitungan 3 hari. Kalau tahu bentuk tubuh kaka ipar saya, hmm mungkin anda akan
berpikir yang sama dengan saya, hemm nyamuk mau gigit jg takut. hehehhe..

Saya sedang belajar menyetir, melihat si motor2 berseliweran seenak dewek tanpa pikir panjang, saya tak habis pikir, tubuh ini kalau kena aspal, tetaplah tubuh yang terdiri dari daging dan kulit, tetap akan terluka. Gampang remuk oleh benturan benda keras, kalau meleset sedikit, maka tubuh ini yang pertama kali "mencium" benda2 di sekitar, mulai dari aksi terbang, sampai ada di kolong mobil, semuanya merusak fungsi organ manusia. kita itu ringkih...haaahhh... pengendara motor, sayangi tubuh Anda. : ).

2. Walau manusia rapuh, di saat yang sama saya ditarik untuk melihat "betapa kuatnya manusia itu"

Kalau dipikirkan lebih lanjut, makhluk yang bisa beradaptasi dengan segala situasi itu manusia, walau dibantu alat2 ya.
Di udara sedingin apapun, manusia tetep pernah " menaklukan" Mount Everest, Di udara sepanas apapun di padang gurun Timur Tengah, dalam keadaan sedahaga apapun, manusia tetap melanjutkan hidupnya : ).

Ditempa sekeras apapun oleh kemiskinan, kemelaratan, kesengsaraan, manusia tetap hidup, dan bernafas. Tetap menyuguhkan senyuman saat orang lain tersenyum padanya.
Ditaro di situasi yang sulit sekalipun, manusia tetap hidup, walau kualitas hidupnya mungkin menurun. Tapi tetap : Manusia itu KUAT sekali. Ia dianugerahkan kekuatan untuk berkuasa atas semua ciptaan : ). Isn't it a good news ?

Jadi, tak perlu takut, sedih, susah, merana, dan merasa Anda yang paling sengsara. Di hutan rimba manusia tetap hidup, di dalam kesukaran apapun, manusia terbukti tetap bisa tersenyum dana melanjutkan hidup : ). Be glad, the strength is already there. :D.

Dayspring Blessings : ).

Below are the encouraging words from a dayspring e-card, sent to my bb. I feel loved, and i know the Wonderful Counselor is alive! He knows when I'm worrying n questioning a lot about what tomorrow might bring.

My family has a favorite phrase: "We'll see..."
We add it at the end of stories. Grab onto it to describe the future. Toss it into the middle of decisions.
It works pretty well.
And yet lately I've found myself wondering what it might mean to add more to the end of that phrase - to not simply stop at
"We'll see."
What if I finished the sentence?

We'll see...God come through in amazing ways.
We'll see...how He'll work all of this out.
We'll see...His goodness in the middle of the happy and hard places.
Yes, He knows all our circumstances, every hair on our heads, every care in our hearts.
He'll see...always has, always will (that includes today too).
And somehow that's enough to make me close my eyes and smile for awhile.
-Holley Gerth


We'll see everything comes for a reason : ).

withy

what a THANK YOU can do..

Notes di bawah ini ditulis oleh seorang sahabat terbaik saya yang menuangkan pengalamannya :

Dari duluuuuu
Saya terkenal sbg salah satu org ter"naive" di dunia
 
Gampang percaya
Mudah diboongin
Selalu bilang org baik
Sahabatan sama kata"ngalah"
Ga enakan setengah mati
Dan
Sasaran empuk u/ ditekan
 
Berpuluh2 nasihat pernah saya denger ttg ini, Berikut bbrp diantaranya
 
"baikkk sama bodoh itu tipiiiss cyn bedanya!"
"come on, jgn terlalu naive! Dunia ini ga sebaik yg loe pikir!
"welcome to the jungle,cyn!"
"oiii jgn may diinjek2!! SPEAK!!"
 
Dan lain-lain yg jumlahnya ratusan!
 
Tp dari dulu sampe skrg saya selalu mikir klo "hati kita tulus", pasti TUHAN jg ga butaaaa ko :D
 
Dan berbuat sesuatu yg jujur dan baik, ga akan membuat kita lbih BODOH dr yg lain!
 
 
However,
I just wanna say that
I think, Im RIGHT
 
Dari dulu, di tengah dunia kerja yg bnyk dikenal as a "JUNGLE" ini, I can Survive well!!! Because GOD works!!
 
Bukan dengan "mencelakai" org2 yg jahat sama saya, tp dengan menempatkan dan mengenalkan saya dgn org2 yg tepat yg jg berhati baik!
 
I can frankly speak about it! Mulai dr di RCTI, say cheese n subur, n YCAB foundation, I am surrounded by GoOd people with great power!
 
The point of this note is simple
 
When this world confusing u
Whether u should be good and do good
or u should play tricks n have some hidden agendas to protect yourself
 
The answer is
Be good to anyone
Do good to anyone
Have no hidden agenda
Have a pure heart
Stay sincere
 
You dont need to be affraid
Just do good
God knows better
on how to protect you in this "jungle"
He will take care of the rest
 
I am a living witness _ cynthia tenggara.




Ada 1 sAat saya bangun dan hemm biasa jadi miss Grumpy, males ngantor dll. Mengingat u ke jkt aja di senin pagi saya harus bangun jam 4 am, n duduk di bus by 4.45 am. Sampe kantor disambut sama muka mesem rekan kerja, n celotehan "kurang bermutu" ttg atasan saya. Rasanya kalo ngikutin hati pengen ngmg " helloooowww, kita lagi kerja kali. Namanya kerja ya cape, namanya juga kerja. Yauda lah saling support spy hari kita menyenangkan. Tapi saya juga ngerti, who am I to judge people around me.I always come back to have d right respond withy n d right attitude toward ur work. There's gonna be the time, kalo kt amsal. Ada saatnya terang orang benar itu bercahaya. Soo.. Though I was grumpy I pressed on to do what is right.

N yesterday night I almost burst into tears, when laoshi came up to me with a warm hug and say "tHank you for being wise" I was there standing. Thinking of.... Do I deserve the "thanks you". O well she never see me was grumpy on d bus, cried on my ojeg. She thanked me. N it changes everything. It should be me , who ought to say "thank you for a chance to learn n do my internship"

I flashed back, there're times when I came home n all I do is praying. Bless my leaders and bless those who hate my leaders ( I know how irony is this). N I know that God hears my pleads, He seeks through heart n He teaches me to treasure sincere heary more than anything.

N yeah He has His own way to work. He can do anything just to make your righteousness shine s bright after he brings u to the "molding" process.


Above all : this quotes still proven :

What comes from heart shall touch heart :).






-when a thank you means a lot-
Withy

If I just touch His clothes...

Aku berdiam di kesunyian
Di keheningan baitMu, Bapa
Tanpa kata dan tanpa bahasa
Hanya menunggu Engkau, Tuhan

Yesus Tuhanku Kau paling mengerti
Rapuh hati ini, letih jiwa ini
Jamah ya, Tuhanku
Jamah ya, Tuhanku
S'bab Engkaulah Tuhan yang paling mengerti

http://filetram.com/download/4shared/audio/8611446832/sisca-yang-paling-mengerti-mp3

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"If I just touch His clothes, I will be healed "
But Jesus kept looking around to see who had done it. Then the woman,
knowing what had happened to her, CAME and FELL at his feet and
trembling with fear, told Him the whole truth.
He said to her " Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed"

- Faith like a child -

Today we had to keep helping each other :) as one of our team went for a holiday. Its been a tired week honestly. Yet all we do is Finish the Week Well! Then u ll be okay on weekend.

So I helped 1 of my team mate in doing the reading test with 1 student, "M". Yea he has a so called Christian name. U guess :). While we did the review in reading the article, came one girl that bluntly said : "hey, u look like a GAY" fyi she's just turned 9yo. He was mad at her, whispering d word : You, son of B*t*h! .then the boy continue to read with me. He said : who's that girl miss? She's soooooo bad. N almost said the F word I let him stay focus in what we've been reading.

After we finish read, its time for M to do the test. What surprised me is he spontaneously asked : is this gonna be the real test? I nodded. And He closed his eyes, n start praying. "Lord Jesus, am about to have the test, please bless me and gimme wisdom, in d name of Jesus Christ I pray ". I smiled :).


It warmth my heart, the way M remembers whenever he's going to have d test, all he will naturally do is PRAYInG. Isn't it great? Little M just know that he can't do by himself even - just taught him. Isn't this is a GreaT DEPENDANCE he showed?

Well, some might think about , seconds ago he just said that "dirty words" oh is he a real Christian ?. Well, I agree. He shouldn't go with that dirty words, but its a natural reaction. He was just be honest with all he is. Not trying to justify what he just did, but d point is, he COmES before the LorD with ALL HE IS. As time runs, as her parents teach him ( that I'm sure they bring up their children with values) he'd come to understand - living this life in harmony - to put his faith into action, into everything he think, he says and he does. Its just the Dependance he showed make me realize how good it is þo Have Faith like a Child.




- breaking d bondage of legalism, everyone has a chance to Change -
Withy

fow what is seen is Temporary , what is UNSEEN is ETERNAL

Sunday, april 17th - 12 am
We went to RS. Salak, to see one of our youth member. I was told that this young girl had a limfosit cancer. Well, we came by and pray as we always do. I was soooo amazed with the Smile this 19 yo girl has. Though she was weak, laid down on d bed with 3 other patients , she look charming. She smiled and ask, "who are you? Am lil confuse " I said my name. She said I didn't know u personally. I smiled back. We ended up in prayers and asking the Father for an extra strength and above all for His will be done. :).

sunday, april 17th - 2 pm
Some of the youth member had a meeting, discuss how to raise fund for this young woman. It cost a lot for her just to lay down and waiting for the biopsy result.

Sunday, april 17th - 7pm
We talked how to do the fund raising, who's in charge in this n that. Here I see how the LoVe that bind each other. How the compassion heart moves everyone.


Monday, april 18th - 9 am

Our beloved sister in Christ, WENT HOME. We are all sure that this is the best what God's been prepared. We don't have any CRITical Question of WHY. For we know naturally, that she has FINIShEd all what she's to do. And we Praise the Lord for that.

We give our last honour to our dear sister. We rejoice with you, for we know u're in a Good Hand now. Thank you for set us an example to live this life worthy of the calling, thanks for being faithful, thanks for finishing WELL. Above all thanks that on ur last breath, you keep being a living witness to your family.

Thanks for always sow what is UnSEeN, we know its ETERNAL. Your mam bragged about you ( this I know every mom would do this, but your mom did it differently, she loves what u did when ure alive) that u re the one who always go to church, go to sunday school. And ure about to accept scholarship and go to Korea. I know what ur mom sees is ur everyday life, ur everyday routines. And what u left for them is this : Good Name. Good Deed. Good EXample.


Yea I didn't know you personally, but 1 day, I left my plastic bag on the church. I forgot that's inside but I treasure it. N the next sunday, u came to me with that warm smile and said : "think this is yours, I kept it for you" . I said my deep thanks and ask : "what's ur name again? - Renny" . Since then I ve never talk to her a lot, but I know she's a good person. She did what is "unseen" keep ppl 's things left on the church service. Yet she did it faithfully.


No other words,
She taught me to do what is UNSEEn to set my eyes on it.
For what is UnSEEN is eternal

Her mom will keep bragging about her ( n this is good :))
For what is unseen is ETERNAL.




Withy.