- Hurt people hurt -

I know how weird this title sounds. ITs a very simple sentence ,yet its worth a ponder. n it teaches me lotS!

I found my self in a "hard to adjust" situation, I don't really care actually what people surround me do n say, as far as I do all my tasks n be good. But thing doesn't always go on ur way, and yeah thats what happened. I pray when I do my part, then people will stop complaining and start to strive doing our best, as I wish they would see how hard I m trying to always be +.

Now i know the reason why........ I dont have a time to follow to be "bitter". I made a decision clearly. HURT people always Hurt, so BreaK THe ChaiN,
n make a difference....

GO against the flow,

and you'll see how Restored People, HEAL! : ) .



sooo.. yeah as you have received the Love that is UNCOnditional,
Accept u just the way you are,
It is the Love worth giving.

EVeryone has a BIG chance to be FORGIVEN.






- teach us and Forgive us, as we forgive them who trespass against us -
withy

New season of Life : )

Am back :D.
setelah beberapa lama ga nulis, tertelan oleh kesibukan diri 'adjust' kembali dengan negeri asal. Saya kembali duduk....
dan belajar mendengar.

Saya hanya ingin berbagi tentang rasa syukur ini, i know no words would enough to express my gratitude for having such a great father like mine : ). tepatnya 2 minggu lalu, kmi melakukan rutinitas Jumat pagi : jalan menyusuri kebun teh gunung mas.
Memang hidup di china itu, 1 training u/ cinta berjalan kaki, yang biasanya saya bisa marah2 karena jalan 2 jam, kali ini jalan selama 2.5 jam tidak berasa cape, hanya hati yang tenang dan segar.....

i thank God for a time when we can share laughters and tears
a time to share our humming ...
a time to share a "Woow" when we see the work of His hand
a time to say Grace on the top of the mountain...
thanks that You 're the Creator of the Universe yet You care for our details Lord,

weirdos..

okay....

Am meeting one woman,... she's a friend of my sista. from the first sentence she spoke to the last one, all she speaks is in ENGLISH. she lives in indonesia, n She's chinese descendant. She learnt a lil bit chinese, n she called it "garbage chinese" coz she never be in a formal class, she used to hang out with taiwanese.

i didn't talk to her coz am busy thinking.................................

how Indonesian are weird
some people would tell its rich with its culture. so english is our 2nd lang, and its "COOL" to speak in english..
while me am thinking of heeemmmmm....

am free n totally FREE to speak out without thinking too much and struggle with grammar and new words in my home country. here in Indonesia. I ve never ever appreciate how good it feels to speak in my mother language before I studied chinese.
n now am meeting one chinese girl who always speaks in english in our own country....


ok i can tell
somehow speak in english will help ur kiddos growing in a language environment and they will easily learn english someday.
this quite weird but i know this thing exists, people feel smarter, n sometimes it makes ppl feel they are " smart, well educated, prestige, COOL" when they speak in english.

But .....
when will their kids learn to love Bahasa Indonesia? and appreciate their mother language naturally ?
Ppl would answer : kids will learn their mother language when they're at school, Don't worry. yet educate them to always speak in ENglish or Mandarin or any other language.

heem.... this just seems weird for me..

tho i dunno what will i teach my kids someday. DO i appreciate Bahasa Indonesia enough ? Or am i proud to be indonesian who's half chinese, speaks Bahasa Indonesia, chinese n english. coz i also feel weird to sum up this weird thing i found not in my mother language but in ENGLISH.

heemmmmmm *... *

something to think about :D....



dizzy,,
withy.

girls days out! :D

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girls days out! :D

well....
I suppose i should do my last paper today. Yet I haven't start any word ! Yeah i need a discipline on this.tonight I need to stop for a while I decided to sit and write some random thoughts. (I have my cup of milo, and feel so relief )

1. Its just hem.... It is back, the feeling of "I love my NOW" I wanna enjoy as much as I can.
I don't like saying good bye SO MucH!I need some lil time to adjust and gain back the zeal, thats why I sometimes struggle with my "I Love NOW".I know n understand fully, there's a time for everything. A time for every single thing : )


2. I always love reading other's blog, its just have its own pleasure when i read words and sentences, when i read how people express themselves through words. : ).
I've just read my friend's blog : http://missfregoe.blogspot.com/ n find it sooooooo interesting, u should check out all the crafts she made. n her thoughts on being alone. I am glad that on this massive world with its craziness i found someone who struggle on some points i do.

3. I gotta start to write a blog with more pictures and write at least once a week.

4. O yeah, today one of my friend came up to mind this morning. I text her just to make sure she's alright. Her best friend flied out to States after visiting her for almost 2 weeks. and yeah sure she's sad. but i also thankful that at least she has a good reason to cry.

My fav spot in this year : ).

this is the place where I come to my Creator and say "I Love You"
Often times I failed to put that word into action.
And Every night right this spot, my conscience teach me, to be true and sincere.
To humbly admit all my faults and to ask for forgiveness.


This is the place where I lay down my head
and have a restful night. have a wonderful dream..
This is where sometimes 我偷偷得哭, esp when I don't really get what-life-tries to teach me.
Its not as often as last year that i really safe a lot of my tears in 2010,
Yet this spot has a lot to do with times of troubles in 2010.



I wrote my love letter to my Father, n yes it is on that very cozy spot.
I ask QUESTIONS about tomorrow there,
I ask for blessings ,
I ask for forgiveness,
I once desperately asked that He would give me
some wonderful insight when I fall asleep.
And that very night I had a wonderful dream ever,
Its was crystal clear, none that I've had before.
My dreams was about " A restored Heart "

I woke up with d biggest smile,
I love when He teaches me through dreams.
I ask for a restored heart.
til today......





when Christmas comes on the corner,
I don't have something precious enough that i can offer.
beside a heart saying,
"Yes, Father, I give you permission to always restoring my heart"
I don't know what else should I offer,
but one thing I know,
my King appreciates honesty,
my Love seeks through my heart,
my Father definitely loves
me just the way i am,
n He wants me to be more like Him,


Its not all the blessings that I want to thank for
I thank for Him, yeah I thank for His presence,
so that we can always be true to each other, Dad.
I thank for being the WONDERFUL COunselor
I thank YOu for You are the Mighty God
I thank You for You are my HOPE
I thank You for YOu are my EVERLASTING FATHER.
thank you for being OUR PRINCE of Peace.

I thank for a pen, for a diary,for Your Word and for a book called " walking with God"
these keeps us connected

I thank You for the freedom of condemnations!
I thank You for You never ever say "I'm busy" whenever i crawl and go up there.
am thankful for YOU!
yes for YOU,
who's been really good!







with.

what my heart longs for : ).

More than a nice melody,
More than the sweetest of word's,
This is love i have found,
and with this love i am found.

I just want you jesus, i just want you my lord,
I just want you jeses, i just want you.

Never could i comprehend,
The love you so freely give,
Never could i be with you,
But you love covers all of my sin.

I just want you jesus,
I just want you my lord,
I just want you jesus i just want you.

There is no greater love than Yours,
Nothing else could ever compare,
And even if i search all the world i will never find a love like Yours god.

There is no greater love than Yours,
Nothing else could ever compare,
And even if i search all the world i will never find a love like yours.

I just want you jesus,
I just want you my lord,
I just want you jesus,
I just want you,
Jesus!