Tidak mengerti : (

Saya ini sungguh tidak mengerti.
Merasa jadi kelinci percobaan : (. Emang iya sih.
tpi keselllll aja, sama semua hal2 kecil yg ga diurus2.
Heraaaannn sama semua hal yang gampang dibuat ruwet banget.



Tolongin saya untuk tetep punya respon hati yg bener, walau gmanapun.
withy.

lemme know once again , I am loved no matter what .

Back sound : i know You love me - Hillsong

Yes You searched me
You know my way,
You know my failures,
yet I know You Love me

Thanks for Your Holy Presence surrounding me,
please lemme know once again, I'll never be alone.

I know You shield my way, Your hand upon me.
I know You love me.

At the CROSS I bow my knee,
there's no greater love than This
what can separate me now.....

Thank you That ITS aLL Done.

When the earth fades, falls from my eyes,
I know You LOVE me.

难忘的一天。

我感谢你神。。。
感谢你因为你给我很美丽的礼物。
我知道你真爱我。。。。

今天我不会忘的一天，我感谢你给我很好的朋友。。
很珍贵的机会跟他们一起过生日。。
祝福他们。。

I will bow to You

I will bow to You
to NO other God
but You alone..

I will lay down my idols
Thrones I have made
All that has taken my heart <3.>

I woke up this morning, with another grumpy attitude. Its 6 am, i have to get up and start to do exercise.
n yeah what I saw this morning is much more precious than just snuggle down in my super-warm-comfy blanket.
ITs a worth view to see...

I saw some people, holding some utensils n start to cultivate the land. While me, is again wake up with no "精神“. shame on me, huh? : (. I walk for a while, realizing its d time for me to reflect on things going in life, my attitude toward life. : ),I did the "check-up"

I always love when I see people with their simpleness n with their trust-- that what ever they sow now, one day they'd reap them with a smiling Face. I saw at least 3 people, busy sowing, the other 1 is preparing the land to be planted, the other one is watering some plants. Its definitely a WORK. N i wonder what would they think now, counting the sow - and count the harvest they might have ....... or they must have some Big Expectation of what the harvest would bring them --Another meat on meals, a new winter clothes, or elses. Whatever they have in mind one thing I see is , they do the work WholeHeartedLy. They have not seen the result yet, what they do is... They DO what they Need To DO. The rest, I bet they pray, they hope, they, whisper,.... that the plants would bring them a great harvest. : ). This goes with our life too, do things wholeheartedly, as for God not for human : ). then God has His own part, He sends rain to cabbages, He knows TOO WELL how lettuce should grow well. All I have to do is, put a small seed of Faith, and a bowl of HOPE, that HE knows Everything.

I saw at least 4 horses........ aahh PRetty!
n I was reminded, of the verse " He lays me down on a green pastures, He feeds me in front of my enemies"
It really is.... He lays me down on a green pastures. What i have in front of me is a green pastures, do I still need to doubt Him??

I beg You today God,
I will lay down my idols,
thrones i have made,
ALL THAT has TAKEN my HEart..... - the worries, all doubt i Have, the fear of tomorrow-

I will lay it down,
for I know, You are TRUSTWORTHY.




with

Living to please others : )

Rome 5 : 2
We should please others. If we do what helps them, we will build them up in the Lord.
For Even CHRIST didn't please himself.
may God who gives this patience and encouragement, help you live in complete harmony with each other -each with the attitude of Christ Jesus toward the other.

So accept each other just as Christ has accepted you, then God will be glorified. : ).

don't let evil get the best of you, but conquer evil by doing Good! Rome 12 :21

Saya baru tau arti "Seorang sahabat menaruh kasih setiap waktu, dan menjadi seorang saudara dalam kesukaran "
Kalo saya mikir pake pandangan dunia, seorang sahabat itu harus ada di setiap saat, saat senang, susah, sedih, di segala keadaan. Kalo ga ada di masa2 susah ato cuma ada di masa2 "emas" disebutnya " ga cengli, ga setia kawan, ga loyal... " kata2 "habis manis sepah dibuang" paling sering didengar telinga kita saat deskripsikan hal ini.

Tapi waktu saya renungin lagi kata2 ini, ini sih kata2 powerful banget! Beda sama apa yg selama ini saya ngerti apa itu jadi seorang sahabat. : ) ngertinya sampe batas sahabat itu yang mengerti saya, yang berani bilang salah kalo saya salah, n hal2 baik lainnya. Ternyata itu aja ga cukup.

Seorang sahabat menaruh kasih setiap waktu - iya Setiap waktu.
Seorang sahabat menaruh kasih, waktu dia dilupakan.
Seorang sahabat menaruh kasih, waktu sahabatnya lupa bilang " sorry"
Seorang sahabat menaruh kasih, waktu sahabatnya dateng telat pas janjian jalan brg.
Seorang sahabat menaruh kasih, saat dia kesel sama sahabatnya
Seorang sahabat menaruh kasih, saat menegur karena sahabatnya berbuat salah.
Seorang sahabat menaruh kasih, saat yang lain ga percaya lagi sama dia.
Seorang sahabat menaruh kasih, saat kata terima kasih sangat jarang didengarnya.
Seorang sahabat menaruh kasih, waktu dia kurang dihargai.
Seorang sahabat menaruh kasih, SETIAP WAKTU.

Dan menjadi saudara dalam kesukaran.
Emang paradoks! kalo dunia bilang, "temen lo mah nyari lo saat susah aja"
Harusnya kita reflect lagi ke ayat ini, bukankah justru seorang sahabat cenderung akan cri sahabat nya saat dia "lelah dan terjatuh". Jadi itu natural banget kalo sahabat kita cari kita saat susah, : ). Kalo saat susah dia cari kita, Amsal jelas bilang, "Jadi saudara dalam kesukaran, itu baru sahabat " :D.

Bagus ya...


Saya masih sering gagal.. tpi mau terus belajar : ).
Jadi seorang sahabat yg menaruh kasih setiap waktu, dan menjadi sahabat dalam kesukaran : ).

Learnings from these days : )

Hari ini saya belajar, bahwa menghormati orang yang sedang berbicara di depan itu penting : ).
Hari ini saya belajar, menjadi pendengar yang baik itu jauh lebih susah ketimbang berbicara : )
Hari ini saya belajar bahwa tidak setiap orang seperti saya, karenanya saya harus belajar mengerti...

Hari ini saya belajar bahwa kerendahan hati itu sesuatu yg berharga
hari ini saya belajar bahwa di dalam segala hal kecil Allah bekerja u/ datangkan kebaikan
Hari ini saya belajar, menjadi orang murah hati itu tidak mudah tapi bisa asal kita mau.

Hari ini saya belajar 1000 bahasa itu terlalu banyak dibanding 1 tindakan Kasih : )
hari ini saya belajar, bahwa bukan saya.... tpi DIA, its not about me, its ALL ABOUT YOU!
Hari ini saya belajar, He must become greater and greater n I become less and less.

Hari ini saya belajar, bahwa tidak selamanya apa yang saya pikir baik itu BENAR.
Hari ini saya belajar mengerti, bahwa semua orang punya kepentingannya masing2, waktu kamu merasa "dilupakan, ditinggalkan", Dia ingin saya belajar menjadi dewasa dalam bersikap.

Hari ini saya belajar, mandi 15 menit itu tidak efektif, hahhahah :D.
Hari ini saya belajar, berhati2 dengan lidah itu penting, berjaga2 dengan mulut itu penting.
Hari ini saya belajar, jujur itu sebuah latihan, sebuah proses belajar, dan sebuah hasrat u/ sekedar menyenangkan hati Dia.

Hari ini saya belajar banyak sekali hal...... : )


Hari ini saya kembali belajar, u. melipat tangan dan berdoa di sisi tempat tidur saya, mengucap syukur dan duduk diam, "mendengar" ..





withy

once again.... I need Thee

when I cry for help,
O hear me Lord
Touch My Heart n
Still the raging storm in me.

I need thee every hour most gracious Lord
no tender voice like thine can peace afford
I need Thee O I need Thee
Every hour I need Thee O bless me now my Savior
I come to Thee

I need Thee every hour in joy or pain
Come quickly and abide or life is in vain
I need Thee yes I need Thee
Every hour I need Thee
O bless me now my Savior
I come to Thee

I have many tears and sorrow,
I have many questions about tomorrow
There' been times I didn't know right from wrong
But in every situation God gave blessed consolation
that my trials only curl to make me strong

I 've been a lot of places
I've seen so many faces
there been times i felt so all alone
in that lonely hour
in that precious lonely hour
Jesus let me know I was His OWN


So I thank God for the mountain
And I thank Him for the valleys
I Thank Him for the storms He brought me to
If I've never had a problem
Wouldn't know He could solve them
Wouldn't know the faith in His Word could do

Through it all..
through it all...
I've learned to trust in Jesus
I've learned to trust in God
Through it all...
I've learn to depend upon His Word


hang in there, tiw! God will see u through

withy.

learnings

The learning has always been this :

Trust God more than man :D!
yeah...... its so true!!

what else can be so true? except...
His Love is Unfailing, Unending, and the Only! love that never makes u down.
Love that always patient, kind, n everlasting!



still not enough,
go on ur bed, open up ur old diaries,
think thoroughly,
the choice is yours,
..........

u let man destroy your heart,
or u let Him take you heart,
and keep it for someone who deserves it.





You have my heart,
with

kerinduan saya..

berjalan dengan apa ?

Seringkali saya ini bingung. Stuck sama pemikiran sendiri yang menari2 dengan indah di kepala : ). Cukup membuat iman goyah, mata buta, serta telinga susah mendengar.

Gatau musti mulai dengan apa.... berjalan dengan cara gimana, n darimana............

Yet along the confusion n wilderness, saya cuma bisa liat jalan setapak di depan mata saya, lainnya "gelap" i don't have any idea what tomorrow might bring,
what next year hold....

what the things ahead wait...

tapi saya cuma punya 1 kerinduan,

saya rindu berjalan dengan :
kepercayaan seorang anak kecil pada Ayahnya,
hati yang simple untuk sekedar tahu, saya ada di Tangan yang Aman,
dan keinginan kuat untuk menyenangkan hati Dia jauh lebih dari apapun.

this thing i ask before I die Lord,
Don't give me riches nor poverty,
Give just the thing I need : ) ( my portion)
Let this life always speak the truth! n
let the truth set us free...



: ).
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橘子洲。。

昨天我们一起去橘子洲，一点半出发，八点刚回来。。我真的累死了。可我很开心能跟大四的学生一起玩儿。 ： ）

在那儿我看了很好的风景真让我很感动。。不知道说什么好。： ）。
我今天没有话要说。只有几张照片。



对了，我还需要为印尼祷告，我听说那个火山越来越不好，出了很多问题，所以今晚我求你神，照顾我的亲人，照顾所有的孩子，照顾营救的人，照顾我初国，我知道只有你神可以帮我们，可以保护我们，给我们的政府智慧所以他们会很快决绝这个问题。谢谢神。